5/1/16
Dear Angel Jackson,
Words cannot fully express the magnitude of sorrow I’ve felt these past couple of weeks without you in my world & on this earth. I will & am forever grateful for the signs that you have given me to let me know you’re OK I know they are direct messages from you and your love from above. Thank you Jackson for showing me the true essence of “being”. I miss your soft velvety ears and the ability to scratch behind them and rub your belly, its this type of affection that is so hard to describe to someone who’s never experienced this kind of connection with an animal or a soulful being. It’s real it’s tangible you where here, but now you’re not and I have to take comfort in the signs you continue to share with me. It’s these signs that will continue to bring me comfort in my time of sorrow for the next couple of days to months & years ahead. This feeling deep inside is all encompassing but I don’t want it to rule my life and make it impossible to move on, I know you wouldn’t want that for me. Its a heaviness of sorts that descends on my chest as the tears continue to flow. I feel numb at times having trouble enjoying the things around me, but knowing this wouldn’t make you happy to see me this way. I keep looking back at all the wonderful photos and videos I took of you in your favorite spots at the beach, swimming in the ocean & pond, sitting on the hill like a Sphinx, romping through the snow, chewing your sticks & chasing your frisbee. All these moments collectively bring a smile across my face because I know they are acts of pure JOY! This is what I need to feel again myself but it’s so hard without you here, something is missing and it’s YOU! I continue to be amazed at the times that I stop to look, breathe and see the beauty and the animals that you’ve sent into my life to ease the sorrow and bring me back to this “joy of being”.
Like the day when I went to Nonni and Granpa’s to stop by and say hello and next to their garage were two female turkeys and one male turkey who came walking from the garden where you are buried. He continued to strut around the house to the other side, so I could show my Mom from the window above. My first thought was Jackson wouldn’t come back as a turkey he didn’t like those birds, but then I thought maybe this was you as spirit.
My mother and I were amazed because the turkey was very purposeful in his movements, looking right up at us & making eye contact twice.
Then the turkey proceeded to strut to the back of the lawn & within seconds the 2 females took flight across the pond & the other turkey (you) took its time & then took a running jump to soar his wings, stretched out wide to fly to the other side of the pond. My mom and I were truly amazed we had never seen turkeys in the yard before EVER and we both had never seen them fly, it was truly a magical experience.
Then the other evening at sunset I took a walk down to the beach at Nelson Park where we use to walk and contemplated life. I walked the beach, smelled the salt air and said a couple of times give me something/send me something that is rare a piece of blue Seaglass shaped as a heart or a rock from above, tell me that you’re here with me Jackson.
I settled on an area of the beach that we had never walked before & took several photos of old wood pilings in the sand. They were majestic and artful and it got my excitement going again for taking photography I felt joy and peace and a calm came over me that I hadn’t felt in a long time.
As I walked my gaze kept drifting to the sand below my feet searching & searching. I found beautiful brown, clear & green pieces of seaglass, then my eyes took me to a piece of purple seaglass with large ruffles on the edges just sitting in the sand waiting for me. Truly magnificent & yes oh so thankful for this was the message, the token of love from, above & it wasn’t till later when a friend said to me that it looks like a crown, from “King Jacskon” Of course!
As I continued to walk back toward the car I noticed that four Mallard ducks had been following me the entire walk down the beach & back bobbing in and out of the water and at one point coming up on the sandbar and cleaning themselves. As the sun continued to set the magnificent colors of purple, pink, orange & yellow just melted into the horizon and reflected into the sandbar creating a mirror of beauty. All the while the ducks began to waddle back into the water & of course I took photos of them, knowing that this was just another sign from you.
I know your spirit is guiding me to be gentle with myself and allow myself to grieve and remind me not to get stuck in the sorrow, but to open my eyes to the beauty that surrounds me and keep my eyes wide open to your messages of love, hope, peace and joy. I am forever grateful of our animal/ human connection Jackson and I promise to keep looking, searching and talking to you. I know that you are happy & at peace, running free & watching over me. I will continue to live fully in the moment honoring you in everything I do.
Love Forever Maw
Beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul!
Paula and Nitro
Thank you Paula & Nitro yes he was indeed!
This is ABSOLUTELY one of the most beautiful tributes if love and enlightenment I have ever seen. The ability of you to recognize the way Jackson is communicating signifies what a truly advanced Soul you are, and Jackson is.
I know your heart is still broken and your sadness is still overwhelming. The world continues and yours has stopped. It feels like you will never feel happiness again. You.miss everything about Jackson. You miss loving him and you miss caring for him. You miss everything about him. Of course, you are able to stay connected by reliving every moment of each photograph.
Clearly Jackson.has created much more fun and significant ways full.of magic for you two to stay connected!
You both are able to channel your higher selves from a realm of energy that is beyond our earth clothes.
I DO believe that Jackson was able to infuse his Spirit energy into the Turkey, into the beautiful driftwood (also known as big sticks for Jackson!),
And through your higher self, you were able to communicate to Jackson that you needed signs..and he did not disappoint! The lovely purple sea glass…in the shape of Jackson’s Crown…WOW!!
Did you also realize that when he connected with you as that Turkey, it was with a total of THREE Turkeys. The Mallards that accompanied you on the beach..FOUR Mallards. And definitely, the way the Turkey made.eye contact (and you have PROOF with that photo), and the way he lingered…yeah, you got the message!
I believe.with all my heart and Soul the power of connecting with our Spirit loved ones through Nature is real. You and Jackson are proof!!
Thank you for sharing this continuing and never ending journey with Jackson. I find your “letter” riveting. It really speaks to my Soul. And your pictures are just beautiful. I love that Jackson jas reconnected you with the joy and peace you find in photography. I think Jackson has a vision for you along those lines. Hmmm…we’ll see where this path goes!
Again, thank you for this post today. I so hope you will continue with it. Jackson is still touching lives…far beyond his tripawd journey!
Such an enlightened Soul. Know wonder he chose you as his human! He knew you would understand him as he entered.another Soul dimension.
With love and light
Sally and My Eternal Light Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie
Sally
Thank you so much for your words of truth they brought tears my eyes because you see what I feel inside but find so hard to communicate sometimes. I do believe that Jackson’s higher self has connected with my soul on so many different levels. I feel blessed that I can share it with others who may take comfort & know that anything is possible if they just believe & hope. The signs continue just simply by asking him to show himself & sometimes when I least expect it. I am forever grateful to the Tripawd community for the continued support & kindess that is alive in everyone’s comments.
~Thank You
Andrea & Angel Jackson
What a lovely letter to Jackson. He has clearly been sending wonderful messages to you. He is right be gentle with yourself as you heal
hugs
Michelle & Angel Sassy
Thanks Michelle yes we all must be gentle & kind to ourselves when grief is so close to our hearts, time does heal as we continue to learn to live life anew again.
~ Andrea & Angel Jackson
Those are wonderful signs that Jackson sent to you!
<3 Donna & Murphy
Thanks Donna & Murphy for your kind words I continue to be amazed at how powerful the messages are guiding me to live life again & regain a connection to others. Especially when grief feels so isolating & lonely sometimes Angel Jackson just nudges me gently to breathe in the miracles around me.
~Andrea
What a sweet tribute. I’m in the early stages of grieving for my Buddy. He’s been gone just over 2 weeks and I too feel that void in my heart, my life. I cry every day. Your words really rang true for me. Our pups wouldn’t want us to be stuck in grief but it’s so hard to move forward so I take it a minute at a time. And the signs. I have had a few and I hope to get more.
Thank you for sharing. Your letter really resonated with me.
Sending your healing thoughts
Love
Julie and Spirit Buddy
Julie
Thank you for reaching out despite the newness of your own experience, I know with the support of oneanother we will find the pain lessens. It took me a couple of days to respond to all the comments because once again I was flooded with emotion rereading my post. I feel like time just gets swallowed up by the grief & what I feel sometimes. I know you can probably relate so keep moving & searching for Spirit Buddy he’s out there ready & waiting to be with you again.
Hugs to you during your time of healing.
Peace
Andrea & Angel Jackson
Andrea,
Buddy keeps giving me signs just like Jackson. No one else would understand this but us. Those two Tripawds are up there together – taking care of each other and watching over us and YES, giving us signs. I KNOW Buddy is s till with me. The day I picked up his ashes gave me some relief. My 10+year journey with Buddy including 6 months of OSA drama completely changed me as a human. I know that was his gift to me and so it will be my gift to others. A friend recently posted a letter on grieving that rang true with me. Here is one excerpt:
“Mourning is the only door to joy, for those who have not cared enough to grieve will never know true joy”
I truly believe this.
Please keep in touch. We can help each other through his.
Much Love and Peace,
Julie and My Sweet Angel Buddy