A letter from Heaven…

4/21/16
Hi Maw,

It’s me Jackson, today would have been my 7 month ampuversary and I am forever grateful for you giving me the chance to live the life I did, right up until the end.   I want you to know that I’m ok, but you already know this because when you left the hospital after I crossed the rainbow bridge I sent you a beautiful sunset and I know you saw it as you and Steve drove to the Cape.

I even sent Nonni a message and she took this gorgeous photo from the back of her porch to show you.

Then Danette (your sister) told you about the beautiful rainbow she saw only for a brief moment as she drove to Nonni and Grandpa’s.  I sent you a sunset and rainbow because I know that you love them so much and they make you feel like your closer to heaven and me.  It was even great when an acquaintance of yours on Facebook shared with you the photo of the sunset and the rainbow together, as it was a rare moment in time and unusual to see a rainbow at sunset, all the more reason I wanted you to see it too. 

Then on Wednesday, the day after you let me go Terri (your other sister) shared a truly divine experience of walking in the woods with Gregory (her son) and Roo (my dog cousin).  She tells it perfectly, “Roo normally walks in the vicinity of where we walk and only goes ahead once and awhile, but Wednesday was different.  Roo raced ahead and turned his head from side to side like he was looking at something and then with excitement raced back to where we had just walked and did the same thing.  I thought it was such odd behavior because Roo never usually acted this way and he proceeded to do it the entire walk.  I finally realized what was going on and asked Roo, “Are you playing with Jackson?” Roo looked directly into my eyes, almost to confirm the impossible and I told him go play and he turned around and raced back down the trail.”  It wasn’t until later when Terri was telling you the story did she realize Roo was playing with all of us “our family pack” and it made perfect sense.  I’m so happy Terri shared her experience with you as I know she has a connection with us after we leave this earthly place that many people don’t have in their lifetime.

Then on Thursday when you went to your art therapy session to see your clients I know you experienced something magical!  Hilda one of your clients who can’t really hold a conversation looked you right in the eyes and starting singing “Don’t Worry Be Happy” a couple of times, something she’s never done before.  Then a couple minutes later she sang “Na, na, na, na…Na, na, na, na hey, hey, hey Good-Bye”, she repeated this a couple of times and it was very clear to you that this was a message from me and I’m so glad you got it.   You thanked Hilda for singing to you and you said to her “How did you know I needed to hear that right now”.  I know it made you feel very good inside and I’m so pawhappy!

In the last several days the radio has also been my way of sharing with you that I’m ok through the songs that you have tuned into.  I’m telling you how wonderful it was to be loved by you and “I’m Already There”, “Listen to Your Heart”, “One Call Away”, “Two Hearts”, “Stay With ME”, “Stand By You”, “Say Something”, “(Everything I Do) I Do It For You”, “In Your Eyes”, “Faithfully”.  I think after the third song or so you knew this wasn’t normal, but rather messages from me.

I am forever grateful for you giving me the quality of life to “BE” and live my dog’s life purpose.  Some people would not have done what you did to keep me alive and allow me to live with dignity and grace.   At times I think I enjoyed myself more this last 6 months than at I did at other times in my life.  I know I was an anxious pup most of my life, but you brought me comfort when I needed it the most and now it’s my turn to bring you comfort.

So be kind to yourself Maw, cry when you need to and I know lately it’s been a lot and take care of yourself ~ don’t throw yourself into work like you usually do.  Focus on your father who needs you now (I’m keeping an eye on him too) as he try’s to rebuild his strength from this infection.  Allow your family and friends (the Tripawd community), especially Steve and Jake to be the constants in your life, don’t be afraid to reach out to them for love and support.

I want you to know that I am here with you always in spirit; in the wind as it rustles the trees, the birds as they tweet their song, the sun as it warms your face, the water as it refreshes your soul and the moon as it shines down upon you.  At night when the world is quiet all around you look up at the stars, I’ll be twinkling down at you with love for all that you gave me and all that you allowed me to be while we were together on this earth.  Until we meet again Breath and Be Joyful for having loved me so deeply.

Love Angel Jackson