The end is here…walking across the rainbow bridge!

4/12/16

We ended up coming to my house last night as I wanted Jackson to be home & I was hoping this would help Jackson be more settled. Yet early this morning Jackson woke at 2:30 am again crying out & then settled back to sleep, when I woke I found him under his favorite place the coffee table sleeping.  I found two BM on his bed & realized that the end was here as he couldn’t control his bowl movements anymore. I called the vet not wanting to think of the inevitable to come, she confirmed it must be related to the nerve issue & stated if he couldn’t go pee & the bathroom today we would have to bring him in.  The tears started flowing & wouldn’t stop as I sat next to Jackson & whispered in his ear that it was going to be ok that he was going to be at peace soon.  I knew he was listening as he let out a couple of big sighs & adjusted himself into a better position on the rug.  I began to do Reiki on his bladder & back trying to help him relax, which he did.  The true test would come when we went outside to see if he could pee.

As afternoon approached we went outside, it had begun to rain slightly  but I was determined to see if he would pee. We walked gingerly around the back of the yard as Jackson’s gait had gotten worse in the last couple of days, his “Get Him Up” harness was helping like so many times before.  His nose in the air he sniffed the squirrel as it passed overhead on a tree branch, then he peed a dribble here then there but nothing like normal.

I made the call to Steve & waited for him to get to my house from work. The rest as you all know is the hardest thing we ever have to do to our furry friends.  I whispered in Jackson’s ear that he would soon be chasing squirrels, eating crabs, swimming in the ocean & chewing piles of sticks, as a Cancer FREE & Happy dog.  I told him to look out for my dog’s from youth Brandy & Boggs along with his cousins Bo & Gus who had just past away in the last couple of years, they would be his pack and would greet him.  I thanked him for the almost 11 years (his birthday would have been in May) of cherished memories together and giving me the world.  He went peacefully and we buried him in my parents back yard alongside his family pack.

I say goodbye to my best friend, my buddy, my partner in crime, my child that I never had, my companion and my guardian angel. I feel so blessed and honored to be his student and learn some of life’s precious lessons from him. We went through more in the past 11 yrs than most people do in a lifetime, from divorce and heartache, to joy, happiness and love. He played an integral role my daily life, he was more than just a dog (as most of you know who are going through this journey) he has taken a piece of my heart with him.
I am forever grateful to have been graced by his presence and I don’t regret the past almost 7 months. If I had to do it all over again I would just to give him the quality of life
that he deserved so much and to try to beat the odds of cancer!   Just to see the little smile that came across the jowls of his jaw was priceless and the excitement and joy he expressed when he would go swimming was something I’ll never forget.
Jackson run Free, chase squirrels, chew sticks, eat crabs and swim to your hearts content ~ your free of pain and worry and at peace. I Love You to the moon and back ~ Maw

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Jackson homecoming ~ adoption day Sept. 2005
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Jackson doing what he loved ~ eating crabs at the beach!
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Jackson on his one of many hikes in the woods with his prized possession ~ his stick!
Jackson as a puppy!
Jackson as a puppy!
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Swim, swim, swim to your hearts content!
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Jackson until we meet again!

 

18 thoughts on “The end is here…walking across the rainbow bridge!”

  1. Too many tears right now. I’ll be back. Just want to send as much love as quickly as possible right now.

    And yes, he was greeted Gus and Brandy and Bo and Gus and all the April Angels who transitioned before.

    I’ll ne back.

    Sending so much love

    Sally and My Chunky Spiritual Being Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie

  2. I’m so sorry for you loss. Sweet Jackson! Fly High and Swim Free! He was obviously a very loved boy.
    Donna

  3. I am so sorry … my heart hurts for you …. and your loss. Jackson was definitely greeted by all our angels … including my April Angel, Shelby Lynne.

    Sending you love, light and strength …. he will never be forgotten… he was a true warrior and hero.

    Hugs and love,
    alison with spirit shelby in her heart

  4. Peace be with you my friend. My condolences for the loss of your sweet Jackson.
    Love the tribute and pictures.
    Sending you e-hugs.
    pam

  5. I am so so sorry for your loss of truly your ❤️ Dog Jackson. These furfaces truly truly become such an integral part of us and our lives and the hearbreak when we lose them is shattering. Our minds tell us that letting them go is the greatest gift we can give them but it takes our hearts so much longer to catch up to that knowledge. Fly free sweet Jackson you have earned those wings Mighty Warrior! Much Love & Many Hugs
    Linda, Riley, Spirit Mighty Max & New Spirit Ollie

  6. I am so sorry it came to this time now 🙁 I am heart broken for you.
    Saying goodbye is never easy but Jackson knew you loved him and he loved you all to.
    You have some beautiful picture and memories although nothing compares to the real thing of course!!!
    Sending you lots of love and hugs your way as you take the steps you need to.
    Xxxxx

  7. I’m so so sorry that Jackson is gone. It hurts so much even when there is no doubt in our minds that it is what we have to do. If you’re like us, you promised Jackson that you would let him suffer and you kept your promise. He felt your love wrap him tight until the very very end.

    Denise, Bill and Angel Ellie.

  8. My deepest condolences are coming your way, I am so very, very sorry. You all fought and incredible, inspiring fight and nothing can take that away ever. Jackson’s beautiful spirit will light up the stars over your head and the rainbows in the sky, always.

    This had to have been very difficult to write, I’m just so sorry you had to. Thank you from all of us for being a part of the community and sharing so many details about your journey. Jackson’s fight and inspiring life will give hope to others for all time.

    Please remember we are here for you OK? Once a Tripawd mom, always a Tripawd mom.

    xoxo

    1. Agreed, the love we share with our pets is something that will never be forgotten and cancer can’t take that away from us.

  9. Im so sorry sweety…Tears. Its heartbreaking for all of us to lose another but we know we’ll see our babies again. Concentrate on Jackson being in paradise and that you’ll see him again.
    XO
    Deb, Belle and Angel Zeus

    1. Deb
      Yes you’re so right, one day we’ll all meet up with our loved ones again and until then I am cherishing all the good memories and trying to live in the moment, knowing that Angel Jackson is watching over me.
      Hugs & Prayers

  10. I am so sorry to hear about Jackson. Run free boy. Healthy & Happy once again. You gave your boy the greatest gift we can give them their dignity. It’s hard on us.
    You kept that promise you made him

    run free
    hugs
    Michelle & Angel Sassy

  11. April 9, my Buddy, 16, crossed the rainbow bridge. I’m sure he was happy to see your puppy. Buddy was a shih tzu. I’ve cried all week. God bless you and your family.

    1. Kate the same to you too, it’s an ache in the heart that you never know if it will heal, but we have to have faith one day it will that’s what our pups would want for us. Hugs and Prayers to you.
      ~Andrea & Angel Jackson

  12. I’m so sorry. We just lost our Patches after a 7 month battle with osteosarcoma that had spread to her lungs. The pain is raw and it can bring you to your knees. I’m sending hugs and love and prayers that we will both come out on the other side after losing our hearts.
    xoxo
    Debbie And Angel Patches

    1. Thanks Debbie and Angel Patches for the hugs, the pain is real and everyday I get a gentle reminder of my buddy being gone. I have faith that we’ll get through this it may not be easy but it’s necessary “the only way is through” and I know with the support from people like you and friends and family the pain will slowly lessen. Hugs and prayers back to you that today is a good day!
      ~Andrea & Angel Jackson

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